We recently made a big decision and I've decided to go back to work part time. It's been an adjustment, and two weeks in, we have a new rhythm that I'm still settling into. Even though I'm only contracted for part time hours and my job allows for some wonderful flexibility, my energy level at the end of the week is nearly depleted, and I've been finding myself spending my Fridays off napping and lounging while Liam naps. My house is a mess, I have a whole collection of unfinished projects, and right now I'm struggling to balance work, time with Liam, time with my husband, and time to myself. However, I made the decision to start working again for a few reasons:
- I love my work, and it's an extension of myself that I didn't want to lose a connection to. Working with nonprofit organizations is such a joy for me, and I wanted to continue developing my skills.
- I wanted to continue building my resume. I knew the longer I was out of the professional work force, the harder it would be for me to get back into it when I was completely ready.
- I didn't look very hard for a new position this year, but thought a lot about what I would want if I did decide to go back to work. This position hits everything on my wish list, and felt too awesome to pass up. I love my new colleagues and have been enjoying the new challenges.
But, it's been an adjustment for both Liam and myself. I work from home half the time, and even though I only have to leave the house for 5-6 hours at a time, I've had some mini breakdowns about it. It's hard for me to let go and allow someone else to put Liam down for a nap, feed him his lunch, and take him to a music class.
They say it gets easier with time. I hope.
I've always had such respect for women who work full time and balance motherhood. I truly don't know how they do it. And I also have a newfound respect for women who stay home full time. I'm not completely sure how they do it, either, although I was home for Liam's first 9 months. For myself, I feel like I want the best of both worlds. I'm grateful that I have a choice. And I bow to honor every woman out there, no matter what choices they make for themselves and their families.
